I miss being normal

I spent the day yesterday preparing for going to Scarywood last night.  I stayed in bed and took it as easy as possible, knowing i would need the energy for later.  As i stood in line for hours, and walking across the entire park, getting scared etc, I was in a lot of pain.  I managed to stay warm, wearing 3 shirts, a jacket, scarf, a sweater and rain coat, and two pairs of pants, and dry thanks to a large umbrella, so i didnt get very sick.  But my legs got weak and sore standing in the lines for hours.  As I stood in the lines, trying to distract myself from the pain, I looked at others my age.  Perfectly healthy, having no problem standing in a line for that long, and they probably were busy all day doing other things that take energy and effort.

I rode the roller coaster backwards.  It hurt so much I started crying, and when it stopped I did everything
I could to hide the fact i was in pain and pretend I enjoyed it.  I've ridden roller coasters before, even while sick, and have never experienced that pain.  I can't even describe it, it was like all of my insides were getting slammed together, and breaking, and i couldnt breath and it hurt.  I thought something was ripping inside of me.

I miss being normal.